Psalm 44:9-16

But you have rejected us and disgraced us and have not gone out with our armies. You have made us turn back from the foe, and those who hate us have gotten spoil. You have made us like sheep for slaughter and have scattered us among the nations. You have sold your people for a trifle, demanding no high price for them. You have made us the taunt of our neighbors, the derision and scorn of those around us. You have made us a byword among the nations, a laughingstock among the peoples. All day long my disgrace is before me, and shame has covered my face at the sound of the taunter and reviler, at the sight of the enemy and the avenger.

I continue to be at sea, Lord, about this matter of obedience to Your Word. How I recognize the difference between a test and trial that is the result of persecution, that comes because they hate me for Your name's sake and those trials that come as a result of my disobedience? How, but through the inner workings of Your Holy Spirit leading me into all truth, including the truth about myself and my motives.